Content warning: This post discusses suicide and suicidal thoughts. In an effort to keep our community safe, please know how you respond to these things and be sure to take care of yourself and stop reading if the post becomes too heavy for you.
You’ve been feeling hopeless. You can’t remember what happiness or joy feel like. Maybe you’ve been wishing you were no longer here or thinking about taking your life. You know you should reach out for help, but you’re ashamed and embarrassed. Reaching out for help when you’re feeling suicidal can be one of the hardest things you’ll ever do, but it’s also one of the most courageous. You didn’t ask for this, you didn’t do anything wrong to bring it upon yourself, and having suicidal thoughts is not your fault. You deserve help. You deserve support. And you deserve to live.
Suicidal thoughts are exactly that: thoughts. Just like any other thoughts we have that pass through our mind, we have a choice of whether to act on them or not. They can remain only thoughts with no action, and you have the power to make that choice. Just like you may think, “I should go get frozen yogurt,” and then choose to not go get frozen yogurt, you can think thoughts of taking your life and choose not to take action. This is how much power you have over your mind. You can think the thoughts and tell them no, I’m not listening to you.
But oftentimes, it can help to have reinforcement of your choice to live and tools and guidance to help you move through this time. And that’s where reaching out for help comes in. Reaching out for help with your mental health is unfortunately still plagued with stigma in such a large part of our society, but the reality is that reaching out for help with your mental health and with suicidal thoughts is so unbelievably strong, it’s one of the bravest things you’ll ever do.